Friday, May 19, 2017


Maybe I was wrong previously to think that removing fear will solve all of humanity's problems. Without fear, there will be a lack of remorse for wrongdoings, a manifestation of psychopathy. Hence, much as I thought it was good to have a world without fear, I see now that I might be very wrong.

Perhaps what is needed is not the elimination of fear, but the presence of fear, together with a logical, rational way of thought. As a species, we feel fear, and that prevents us from doing certain things which might be harmful to either ourselves or to others. But at the same time, we are guided strongly by logic, and hence fear borne out of irrational desire of having less than your neighbour, or of not enough, or of being compared and losing out, that sort of irrationality could be met with logical, rational reactions. Hence we might feel fear, but we will not act irrationally out of it.

Maybe that is the solution to humanity's violence and destruction.

Maybe the solution is to embrace the Vulcan philosophy.

I aspire to be a Vulcan.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

out of the box

Perhaps it is just me. You know, not fitting nicely into a box. I have a fear of stereotypes.
I find it extremely uncomfortable when people talk about humans in the world who are male and female. Now before you go about thinking I am some weird crazy thing, let me explain.
To me, biological sex is useful in terms of reproductive purposes. And that's about all it is useful in. Gender stereotypes on the other hand, are extremely unhelpful.
While I do acknowledge there are people who identify strongly as a male or a female, and they value their identity very strongly based on how male or how female they are, there are people who at the same time do not. What I am saying thus, is not the removal of characteristics of maybe you would like to call it male or female, or masculine or feminine, but that in addition to these, accept that there are others who do not identify themselves as any of these categories, or perhaps as a third separate category, or a fourth, or whatever.
Not identifying as a female does not mean I identify as a male. And similarly, vice versa. While having categories are a normal human mental heuristic, I propose that as evolved humans, we can function above the level of heuristics. Feel welcome to use your heuristics when you encounter people who identify with the categories your heuristics offer, but shut down your heuristics for a while or build new one when other individuals appear who do not fit into your pre-existing categories.
Well, here I talk about gender stereotypes. But it applies for all forms of stereotypes. All forms of categories, all forms of heuristics we create.

Saturday, May 13, 2017


The Expanse is an awesome show, and by awesome, I mean really awesome. It talks about the fears we have. And I think of all the questions people keep throwing around in the world nowadays, why is this group of people this way? Why do they support such and such a cause? I think it all boils down to our very primordial emotions - fear. A group of people hating another group of people, they are not actually hating specific humans in the other group, they have this emotion because they feel insecure about their own group. They feel fear. Perhaps the fear of being overtaken by a different group of people other than someone who looks like them or worships like them. Perhaps the fear of having to modify their way of life if new groups of people enter their circle. Perhaps they are afraid of a lack of resources when more people come. All these and more, they trigger a person’s feelings of insecurity and fear. And it is this fear that causes hatred. If you don’t fear something, and that something is not bothering you, it’s quite unlikely you are going to hate that something. I think human beings are very economical with their resources. And hatred uses a hell lot of resources. You expend so much energy just thinking about hating something. So I do not think that hatred is going to arise out of its own unless driven by fear. Fear is primordial. It is linked to our struggle for survival.
I wish there was a giant spongeball that can suck up all the fear in the world. It’s only when people stop focusing on their fears and insecurities that they can realise how much more than enough there is for everyone in the world. It’s only when they can put their fear aside that they can realise the other person is just as beautiful as themselves. We need a giant fear-sucking spongeball in this world right now.

Saturday, April 22, 2017

Je suis fatigue.
Je veux juste que quelqu'un me retienne et promet qu'ils ne l√Ęcheront jamais.

Sunday, January 08, 2017

I just want someone to love me, to hold me in their arms and whisper in my ear, "Toil no more. In my arms rest your weariness and be safe in the knowledge that I will not abandon you."
I want someone to share the little bits of my life, my silliness, my exploration at the wonders in the world, someone who cares when I say to them, "I'm scared." Or "I'm excited." Or "I'm really happy."

I need a real living being. Not some rubbish about a mightier than thou being I can also spew, but never appears in reality. What is wrong with me that such a real being always passes me by? Maybe I'm repugnant. Filthy. Worthless.